| ........dip shits |
[Nov. 21st, 2004|02:35 am] |
| [ | How im feeling |
| |  depressed, sore | ] |
| [ | The song thats on |
| | Amanda! im sry | ] |
well been sumtime not going 2write awhole lot dont use this no more all in my head now & the random things i write out well things didnt work the way i thought they did i seriously didnt think they'd come 2the way they are now but they have, body bag hehe i wish.....yes well im getting in2 the feeling its going 2take time but i think i could get used 2it forsure might as well its all im going 2need for all of my life how long that lasts not 2long me hope than it will be great.........well im tired, sore & hurt works for me, i hate wut i've become but hey no point in changin now lost all i can so wut the hell losse everything i say might as well, oh ya back off key word Alone get it through ur heads alright thnx u, have a nice life i shall have my own forsure till we met one day shall we talk or just walk either way goes but it wut happens happens cuz nutting can go like it has now that is forsure well im sick of going on & on so fuck! u all............fucking asshole ill rip ur fuckin thoat open & eat it all up hmm yummy fuck u jerk!
l8er than till the next time we met in my world its fulled with me, me me, oh & 3stikes yes finally 3 lmao yeppers!!!!!!! |
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| thnxful for my job but not how things are..... |
[Oct. 29th, 2004|10:00 pm] |
| [ | How im feeling |
| | down, upset, sore | ] |
| [ | The song thats on |
| | Broken by Sentenced | ] |
blah i dont know why i even borther writtin in here but its all i have at the moment so i must, well work has been really hard at times thats forsure been workin a lot the hours that i gotta do are hard on me thats forsure & its startin 2take its toll on me but i gotta keep going cuz so far i've shown a lot so i gotta stay where i am so that it looks good on me, its hard but i can manage i hope lol...on other notes hockey has been freakin awesome this yr sooooo much better than last yr thats forsure plus a certion sum1 has been coming 2my games a lot so that makes them even better plus makes me play better, thnx u hun=)......well hmmmmm wut else is on my mind well in a week i have my commencement so that is going 2be awesome cant wait till that going 2have my dad, mom, sister & my x so that should be good lookin forward 2that hehe....ahhh well i have no idea wut is going 2happen this weekend so far nutting special & it sucks bigtime:( i wanna go 2a party but i just cant seem 2find one anywhere i might not even borther no point & if one comes than kewl but im not going 2go runnin around for one fuck it!....... yea right now i just dont feel like myself haven't felt good for awhile now but it just hasnt hit me till 2nite i miss her soooo bloody much like i think im getting sum where but than it feels like im not at all like its a game 2her like im not important 2her anymore, like im just sumthing thats still around & hate feeling like this.....im just glad i have my music 2help me get by the days as well as my job im so glad that i have that cuz it keeps soooo busy where im not ever thinkin about bad things its great so im thnxful for that=).....but not thnxful for how things are i dont like how things are right now i want them 2change but its not up 2me 2make that change all i can do is keep workin when like i said it feels like im doing all of this for nutting when i wont get anything in the end just something even worse but i could be wrong but it sure doesnt feel like it thats forsure:( god help me out here is wut im doing right....plz tell me i need 2know for myself, well im out im done with this shit:'( |
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| yea new job |
[Oct. 13th, 2004|07:11 pm] |
| [ | How im feeling |
| |  gloomy | ] |
| [ | The song thats on |
| | Teenage Recoil by Zeromancer | ] |
woah been sumtime since an entry, well i was finally able 2get a job thnx god 2day was my 1st day & it went really well met a lot of new ppl learned things & did my job my manger said that i worked really good 2day so im glad i showed him that im able to that was good.
but on other hand things aren't so good cuz my g/f's dad passed away last week & she hasnt been doing good at all & im just shocked that it happened i cant beleave it did but it did & i'll do my best 2be there for u hun i will i promise.
wut really was such a down was that on monday my g/f & i had such a awesome day 2gether it was soo much fun & im glad i was able 2spend it with her then i had my 3rd hockey game which we won 6-0 woo hoo! then she went home 2find that out it's just soo bad & it sucked i felt so bad for her it just wasnt something that she shouldnt have 2see & deal with it, its going 2be soo hard for her 2come back up from this & im going 2pull her back up or try 2do sum of it but its going 2be hard which isn't a surprise cuz losin ur father is hard for any1.....stupid god='( well im going 2bed now cuz i gotta get up for work at 4:40am it sucks but yea |
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| survey says..... |
[Oct. 8th, 2004|09:40 am] |
| [ | How im feeling |
| |  excited | ] |
| [ | The song thats on |
| | Send me an Angle by Zeromancer | ] |
Stolen from lanna <3
( survey enjoy ) |
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| 15months & still going strong!!!! |
[Sep. 23rd, 2004|01:34 am] |
| [ | How im feeling |
| | pessimistic | ] |
| [ | The song thats on |
| | 11th Hour by Lamb of God | ] |
well the other day was a lot of fun thats forsure tuesday i mean, for 1thing it was my 15month with my girl love ya cutie=) so that was awesome cant beleave how long its been time just flys forsure.....anyhoo sent that day with her then that nite i had my hockey tryouts which i've been waitin for awhile now & also i was scared that i wasnt going 2play but no worries im playing forsure now tryed out i think i did pretty good i hope that is different ppl so it was new but fun........then yesterday i finally put up the posters my girl gave me, my walls look so much better now that they are up glad i did it finally cuz i kept putting it off but its done now=) so biggest thing hockey!!!! heh then on the weekend im going 2finally get new shoes, the ones i have now are destroyed bigtime so that im looking forward2 well im out not much else 2say........ |
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| goodnite with my sis=) |
[Sep. 17th, 2004|02:20 am] |
| [ | How im feeling |
| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | The song thats on |
| | Over me by Lullacry | ] |
well 2day was a pretty good day i do have 2say so myself, didnt really do much just stayed home relaxin talked 2my dad a lot then just played sum games & l8er that nite my sis came over for a bit so that was good cuz i havent seen her in sumtime & she hasn't been doing so well so i did my best 2cheer her up which i did cuz im her brother so i can heh=).......but we talked about a few things made me think of sumthings, things that i should be thinking about & it was good for me cuz now i have a better understanding on them, thnx ya sis=) love ya.......so that pretty much sums up my day i didnt get 2talk 2my g/f cuz my sis was here for all of the evening it sucked but it was good 2see my sis & talk 2her so i guess......well im out byez
( Over-Me ) |
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| blah, nutting new just back 2the same |
[Sep. 16th, 2004|09:36 am] |
| [ | How im feeling |
| | moody | ] |
| [ | The song thats on |
| | Trigger by In Flames | ] |
been awhile once again, nutting really changed just that im still doing nutting when i shouldnt be, i should be working but im going 2get on that either 2morrow or start on it next week cuz i gotta do something about it forsure.......but wut makes 2day so depressing is that, is this....."National Hockey League Commissioner Gary Bettman announced Wednesday afternoon that the league has locked out the players" so there isnt going 2be a NHL season & it doesnt look like there are going 2figure out things anytime soon so that is really a big lose cuz now wut am i going 2do for sports now all that is on is NFL & NBA blah! boring well football is alright but isnt even close 2hockey so that really sucks bigtime.......but anyhoo nutting really else is new, i plan on going 2my school 2day 2get sumthings figured out so that i can get my diploma this yr which is something that i didnt think i would be getting but i am so im happy about that=) well i guess ill do now byez........ |
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| stolen from my lil sis! |
[Sep. 10th, 2004|01:28 am] |
| [ | How im feeling |
| | bored | ] |
| [ | The song thats on |
| | The Fight Song by Marilyn Manson | ] |
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| good time at my moms! |
[Sep. 7th, 2004|01:15 am] |
| [ | How im feeling |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | The song thats on |
| | Cake & Sodomy by Marilyn Manson | ] |
wow has it been sumtime, i didnt think it was this long but it has been & wut a time 2write something right before the 1st day of school*for every1 else hehe* cuz im done highschool thnx god......but anyhoo i had an awesome time at my moms we found 4kittys, my girl & i brought 1back each but found out we couldnt have them so we had 2find homes for them which we did it sucked but wut u going 2do=(.......but during the time down there my girl & i had our fights only cuz we were stressed out cuz of the kittys & cuz my lil bro was sick so my mom was bitchy which made me bitchy & u get the point i hope lol came back stayed at my house for a bit cuz i wanted 2be home which was ok did sum work outside looks better now hehe, then was with my girl for a bit nutting 2big just hung out with each other talked had fun normal things.....but here is where it gets interesting, well on thursday my dad & i went 2see the 9/11 movie which sucked ass wasnt as good as i had hoped it would of been so that sucked but then after my girl was at her sis's place so i wanted 2go over there but my dad freaked on me sayin it was dumb 2go cuz it was like 12:30am & i had 2take a bus wow wasnt that big of a deal im old enough 2take care of myself in sum ways lol, but like he loses it on me & just says "ok ur out of here" so im ok fine with me but of course he wants 2drive me so he does but when i get there he asks for my key which is something that he has never done ever out of all of the times i've been kicked out so that was odd so i was thinkin this was for real this time i was kinda bumed out for a bit but when i saw my girl i got out of it cuz she has that affect on me hehe, oh & that nite my girl was drinkin so u could image how she was lmao funny.....so the next day we hung out for a bit there then were off 2her place was going 2do sum shoppin but her mom didnt have her money yet so we had 2wait till the next day which was sat so we went out & she got these nice pants well 2pairs look really good on her forsure & she got me 2tops so it was good, thnx ya hun=) so we just pretty much hung out all weekend didnt fight at all which was good so it was a good weekend then on monday my dad calls & says he is sry & then he says that he never kicked me out in the 1st place & that i left on my own.....yea right u asshole i seriously dont get him sumtimes he is a joke a lot of the times so i went back cuz i wanted 2be home so w/e but i kinda didnt want 2leave cuz of my girl but she has school startin on tues & i gotta be at my school 2do sum shit so thats wut happen.........wow long1 eh, so now im writin just before i go2 sleep cuz i havent said anything in sumtime things are good right now my dad & i are good so nutting 2report so till the next time im out l8er.....
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh & before i forget my g/f made an accident which her machine gun jubly's lmfao told ya i put it in sum where hehe |
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| was going 2day but going 2morrow finally=) |
[Aug. 19th, 2004|09:34 pm] |
| [ | How im feeling |
| | peaceful | ] |
| [ | The song thats on |
| | Goodbye Cruel World by Cold | ] |
well things have gotten good i do have 2say so, i got back with my girl finally see i knew it wouldnt last 2long hehe i love ya babe=) so we have been 2gether lately which is good cuz we wouldnt of fixed things......well anyhoo we were going down 2my moms 2day but we missed the train so w/e it was dumb cuz i think we could have of made it but my dad didnt think so, so he is putting us on a train 2morrow morning finally god i cant wait going down there makes me feel so much better plus when i come back being around my mom it helps me become a better person i know it sounds dumb but its true atleast i think lol......yea well my girl is sleepin behind me=( but she was tired so needs the sleep seeing that we were up untill like 5am just couldnt sleep but yea check this i finally got my tongue pierced=D woo hoo its awesome it didnt even hurt when i got it done but after it did, i cant even talk that good its like learnin 2talk all over again lol its funny, yea & when my dad found out he really didnt care cuz he cant stop me but he keeps callin me a retard cuz i sound like 1 cuz i cant talk normaly so its funny lol im just glad i got it done cuz if i didnt i would of had 2wait till next yr cuz hockey season is almost here like 3weeks then tryouts score!!! cant wait so that should be interesting......hmmm well there isnt really much else besides that ill be gone for a week so ill try 2write in here but no1 leaves comments anyways so it doesnt matter well like 2 maybe 3ppl its soo sad but i dont care this is for me so it dont matter=) well im out talk in 2weeks=D |
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